Why Can't I Just Die......

rpsoccer520 @ 2006-03-04T23:06:00

2006-03-05T04:16:36Z

Wuts up all my so called Gangstas and Hoodies,

Yeah i went to the circus and it kicked ass till the end...then i finally realized what julie has been trying to tell us all...lets kill everyone in the world....seriously F*@% friends u say u are but then u can't even tell me what u really think to my face and then let someone else take the blame while u agree with them but u just agree with me cause u don't have the f-ing balls to say it to my face! Who the hell do you think you are calling yourself my friend...yeah F#*$ you.....you deffinatly taught me what friends are....hope you have fun tonight!

goodbye
brooke

rpsoccer520 @ 2006-03-01T16:33:00

2006-03-01T21:42:48Z

Wuts up all my gangsta's and Hoodies,

So yes everyone im just loving the whole joke about me and tyler real cool...not!

But yes anyways before people decide to judge me maybe you should ask my side about things before you judge me ight..thanks!

But anyways is everyone against me or is that just me cuz i feel like the guys are having a whole lets make brooke feel like shit week or something..have i done something wrong.. i am so lost...or are you guys just changing....cuz i miss the old guys if you are..i really do miss them if this is the new you then i understand but yeah weird....

Anyways i don't know about you and you might think its lame but if you want to go to the circus ill be there and so will i think julie, bb, kaitlin, and fritz and of course my sista maybe...but yeah its gonna rock no matter what u think because im still a child at heart! lol!..random?

But hey you guys need to talk to me cause i don't know what goin on or maybe its me idk? im lost i felt so good what happened?

p.s. i love my girlfriends i couldn't get through life without you girls!

goodbye,
brooke

Hangin with the girls...yeah im a pimp...lol!

2006-02-26T02:51:03Z

Wuts up all my gangsta's and hoodies,

So yeah my chica's are here...kaitlin, BB, and Fritz! Yeah their baking stuff right now while my sista talks behind my back to them!

But yeah the dance was ight i just wish i could have spent more time with some other people...
Anyways though the dance was rockin dancing wise......me, kaitlin, BB, and Autumn all shook our groove things....lol!

But yesss we are goin crazy tonight and nething is possible so you better watch out!lol!

p.s. Pirates is one wild game!

goodbye,
brooke

Hehe all giddy inside~

2006-02-22T00:53:29Z

Wuts up all my gangsta's and hoodies,

So yess i feel on the craziest high ever only if you knew it crazy....the thing i have disgraced others for feeling i have a case of and its just terrible but so great at the same time... i just can't help but keep smiling!

Man i feel like i could run up to the moon and just sit there and never fall down............

uhhhh only if you knew how i felt right now~

But yeah weekend rocked....
Thursday-Hungout with some pirates who i love....BB and Kaitlin!
Friday-Nothing but watched German chicks.hehe!
Satuday- Uncles surprise bday party!
Sunday- Had game and went to kaitlins to be stupid!lol!
Monday -I ate everything in kaitlins house!lol!
Today- The best day ever!

goodbye,
brooke!

rpsoccer520 @ 2006-02-16T03:36:00

2006-02-16T03:37:01Z

Wut's up all my Gangstas and Hoodies,

So yeah i had a game tonight and lets just say at first i sucked really really bad....but then i started tackling chicks and it seemed to work out so yeah not a bad night at all and awsome work ladies we had them most of the game chica's! But yeah thanks you guys for coming to our game....it was kind of nerve racking i must say, having my friends there watching me and so yeah nvr come agian..jkjk!lol!

So yes many of you know my Husband, he's such a little QT! Now all i have to do is take the next step...TALK TO HIM....lol im such a panzy when it comes to boys...man im such a hater..lol!

But yeah you guys im free everyday but Saturday so yeah im free...im half naked and saying yes so are you LITERALLY TAKE OFF YOUR PANTS!lol that one goes out to JULIE!LOL!

P.S.ILL NVR GET A CARD WILL I...HEHE!

goodbye,
bRoOkE

rpsoccer520 @ 2006-02-09T20:31:00

2006-02-09T20:50:29Z

ummm so yeah i doubt anyone will read this but yeah, i don't even see why i bother writing in this nemore all i get is the same ppls answer so y do i even bother, i really don't know?

So yes idk why im writing this since tommorrow you will all ask how brooke is with her sad face on and not even saying a word to ne one.....if you even notice im there.....but i wonder many times are you my friend just because im in the group or becuase im ur friend?

but ne ways u will see me tommorrow and u won't hear a cruel joke or something new and clever i have to say, but pure silence nothing else.............

For today my life has sucked more then ne other...... I CRIED.....i know its hard to believe, but yess i not only cried, but i BALLED....more then once...and now suddenly i have figured out that it will never end there is no cure.....not even ONE goshdang cure....
im stuck with this forever and at this great dyer time in life i feel absolutly friend less as if i have hurten everyone so now i should feel the pain....and yess i totally agree....so now i wish i could tell you what im talking about but i guess no one will ever know unless you happen to notice...that brooke was finally silenced....................
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p.s.I LOVE YOU GOAT!

goodbye,
bRoOkE

rpsoccer520 @ 2006-02-08T21:36:00

2006-02-09T02:48:18Z

Okay so i got bored and decided to see how many people would comment back to some questions of mine! okay........

If you answer these 10 questions i promise to answer them for you if you post them on your livejournal!

PLEASE BE HONEST!AND I WILL NOT TAKE IT OFFENSIVLY I JUST WANT THE TRUTH!

1.Do you like me?(as a friend)

2.Why do you like me or not like me?

3.How do you think i treat you?

4.How do you think i treat others?

5.Do you believe im mean and why or why not?

6.What do you think i think of you?

7.Do you think im a good friend?

8.Have you ever thought of not being my friend?

9.Have you ever talked behind my back and about what?

10.Have you ever wished i never entered your life?

goodbye,

bRoOkE

VALENTINES DAY!

2006-02-07T21:15:45Z

Wuts up all my gangstas and hoodies?

Man i want a Valentine but i think i kind of blew that huh.......but yeah man would i love a valentine but yeah if u know me i just can't have one......its just not my style.......even knowing last year rocked recieving the biggest teddybear of all time and the rose that meant it all...........hehe! But yeah that was last year and alot has changed but yeah i can't believe im gonna say this WILL YOU BE MY VALENTINE? WHO EVER YOU ARE WHO SEEMS TO WANT TO REPLY......but i seriously doubt ne one will i mean i think iv hurt enough ppl for the year..............:(!

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY KAITLIN RENEE HORAN!

I LOVE YOU TO DEATH!

goodbye,

bRoOkE

rpsoccer520 @ 2006-02-01T19:22:00

2006-02-02T00:33:35Z

Wuts up all my gangsta's and Hoodies?

So yes i'd like to make this clear to everyone...........

DON'T FALL IN LOVE WITH ME OR EVEN LIKE ME LIKE THAT BECAUSE I WILL ONLY BRAKE YOUR HEART............SORRY.....

goodbye,

bRoOkE

rpsoccer520 @ 2006-01-30T22:32:00

2006-01-31T03:38:50Z

This Livejournal goes out to everyone!

I hate fighting....................

I hate losing thoughs i love......................

I hate breaking hearts........................

I hate bringing tears to your eyes................

I hate drama........................

I hate it when i hurt you........................

I hate it when i bring you down.......................

I hate it when i fall in love..................

I hate it.............i just hate it............................

goodbye,

bRoOkE

rpsoccer520 @ 2006-01-28T22:27:00

2006-01-29T04:00:36Z

Wuts up all my gangstas and hoodie's

How do i explain this weekend ohh yeah DRAMA....I even saw myself the beginning of drama.....but yes i have somethings to say and if ur a friend you'll listen....ight?

1. Me and my love life is no one else's business.....even if im braking someone else's heart or making someone else's life the best thing eva....its none of ur business and u have no right to judge me on it unless i said i was in love with them, until those words come out of my mouth that person remains a friend nothing more....nothing less....got it?

2.Ladies and gentlemen i am pure bread anti-christ and the other night i let her show a little bit to much and im sorry......but some of u really shouldn't push me....k or ull meet her agian and trust me she's really not nice not even close to as nice as she was last night....so yeah just to let u know...

3.Another thing im really sorry about last night for some of u having to see me be totally brutal to beebs which wasn't cool of me at all(agian the anti-christ....lol...even knowing i can't blame it on her all the time) and i shouldn't have done that to u im sorry!

4.ohhh and another thing if ur gonna love me u have to except me for who i am and just maybe express ur feeling just maybe........got it?

so read this if u want to know who i am.........

I hate the world today
You're so good to me, I know
But I can't change

I tried to tell you but
You look at me like maybe
I'm an angel underneath
Innocent and sweet

Yesterday I cried,
Must have been relieved
to see the softer side

I can understand why
you are so confused
I don't envy you
I'm a little bit of everything
all rolled into one

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover,
I'm a child, I'm a mother,
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint,
I do not feel ashamed,

I'm your hell, I'm your dream,
I'm nothing in between,
You know you wouldn't want it any other way

So take me as I am
this may mean you'll
have to be a stronger man

rest assured that when
I start to get you nervous
And I'm going to extremes
Tomorrow I will change
and today won't mean a thing

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover,
I'm a child, I'm a mother,
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint,
I do not feel ashamed,

I'm your hell, I'm your dream,
I'm nothing in between,
You know I wouldn't want it any other way

Just when you think
You got me figured out
The seasons already changin'

I think its cool
You do what you do
And don't try to change me

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover,
I'm a child, I'm a mother,
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint,
I do not feel ashamed,

I'm your hell, I'm your dream,
I'm nothing in between, You know you wouldn't want it any other way

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover,
I'm a child, I'm a mother,
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint,
I do not feel ashamed,

I'm your hell, I'm your dream,
I'm nothing in between,
You know you wouldn't want it any other way

I'm a bitch, I'm a tease,
I'm a goddess, on my knees,
When you hurt, when you suffer,
I'm an angel under cover

I'm a nun, I'm revived
Can't say I'm not alive
You know I wouldn't want it any other way

goodbye

bRoOkE

rpsoccer520 @ 2006-01-25T19:26:00

2006-01-26T01:07:01Z

Wuts up all my gangsta's and Hoodies,

This is my collage of love.....................

What do u you think...huh?

He He! Look at those BABY BLUES!LOL!

What do you think of this pic? cute...hot..ugly?

P.S. WHY MUST I ALWAYS PUSH AWAY THE THINGS THAT I LOVE...OR JUST PUT THEM INTO AN EVEN DEEPER WHOLE THEN WUT THERE ALREADY IN CALLING IT SO CALLED HELP...WHEN IM JUST DROWNING THEM EVEN FURTHER....IM SORRY.....

Well yeah i guess that all i got and hey i have a soccer game tommorrow at 5:30 if ne one wants to go!

And hey whose hangin out at Sammy's Friday?

And goin bowlin then jess's house on Saturday?

goodbye,

bRoOkE

rpsoccer520 @ 2006-01-23T17:34:00

2006-01-23T22:53:22Z

wuts up all my gangsta's and hoodies,

Well guess where i just got back from.....the eye docters and u wanna hear some crappy news....i have to get glasses! grrrr.....my parents said i should try the glasses then the contacts! ohhh yeah i have to get glasses because im near sighted and have stigmatism in my right eye! But yeah i don't have to wear the glasses all the time just when looking at the whtie board or projectors but it might worsen is wut my doc said so i shoudl try to keep them on as much as possible but idk about that!

So yeah i missed soccer conditioning which im sad about, i hope u gurls had fun!

I think everyone should jsut hangout together this friday whose in?

goodbye,

bRoOkE

rpsoccer520 @ 2006-01-21T20:47:00

2006-01-22T02:03:36Z

LOVE ~ How do I explain this when I never really have felt it i guess.....but from wut i have seen from others is that LOVE is not really a WORD its more of a PERSON!

If i must explain wuts the first thing u think of when someone says love and if ur in a relationship u should be thinking of that other spiecial person in your life if thats wut u like to call them.......

But i see love as a THREAT....one of the main needs in our lives is to be WANTED by another....and seriously it is...its one of the Hiearchy of the needs in life! So you see how love can cause problems...but then again so much so called love when u have it for u have fulfilled one of the hiarchys of life but hard part is do u want to lose the fun of the chase.....those one little secret kisses in the back of the party.......the chats about how cute the guy across the room is.......of just the plain thought of FREEDOM!

Well okay on to my weekend which rocked i hung out with my bast buddies at a hotel in GR thanks kailtin so much it roxd on ICE!LOL!

p.s. wut do u do when all your DREAMS and EFFORTS end and u start all from scratch?

Also how do u know which ONE is right for you?

Also boys jsut make a gurl feel SEXY...hint hint butterfly!

goodbye,

bRoOkE

rpsoccer520 @ 2006-01-18T12:27:00

2006-01-18T17:46:45Z

hehe i changed it due to new things that has happend!

rpsoccer520 @ 2006-01-16T22:00:00

2006-01-17T03:04:20Z

okay like whoa let me tell u about my night!

okay its wwas goin fine we went sammys then mcD's!Then Trisstan and Isolde which wasn't as great as i thought it would but it was okay! then sammy takes us back here and its goin great then we say are goodbyes and then.......................

WHAM....i swarn to secrecy but sammy im so so so so so so so so sorry!

only if u knew so so so sorry! hopfully next tiem it won't be full of so much drama! sorry!

But yeah i have another question why is it at the last few minutes to people have together they really open up?

goodbye

bRoOkE

rpsoccer520 @ 2006-01-16T13:01:00

2006-01-16T18:13:51Z

wuts up all y gangsta's and hoodies,

hey so yeah soccer game suxd and the stupid broad on the other team scraped the heck out of my knee so now it hurts like no other! uhhhh if i ever see that ref or that chick ever again im gonna hurt um!

But ne ways very excited about the movie tonight and i took my parensts out to dinner last night to Johnny Carinos and its was nice and fun even knowing i was in a cranky mood but ohh well i atleast had some fun!

i have a question for everyone why don't people ever act the same after knowing u like them or u knowing they like u y must it all change and why do people (moslty guys) ever get it, i mean they nvr get it do they see this is why i hate love it is much to confusing for ne one to catch up with & why is it that u almost always have to make that awkward first move? man i hate love....i serously hate, it's way to confusing!But surprising its one of those things u hate but ur always looking for..huh!

someone just needs to sing me the song butterfly~

goodbye,

bRoOkE

rpsoccer520 @ 2006-01-14T13:16:00

2006-01-14T18:22:35Z

Wuts up all my gangsta's and Hoodie's,

So yeah jsut about everyone is gone from my Disney Party...it was okay i am such a sucky host seriously and my house is no fun at all so does everyone see y i don't invite people over! But yeah i had fun hangin with all of my chica's! Well so yeah i have absolutley nothing to do today or tommorrow so yeah if you wanna do something jsut give me a holla okay? So well im tired so cya all sometiem hopefully this weekend! Ohhhh yes our soccer game is at 4:30 sunday! be there! hehe!

p.s. hehe my mood is now a GOAT!lol!

bRoOkE

rpsoccer520 @ 2006-01-11T20:47:00

2006-01-12T01:50:37Z

hehe okay i stole this quiz form julie who stole it from sammy so yeah here it is so plz do it for me!

I _______ Brooke.
Brooke is _______.
If I were alone in a room with Brooke, I would _______.
I think Brooke should _______.
Brooke needs _______.
I want to _______ Brooke.
Someday Brooke will _______.
Brooke reminds me of _______.
Without Brooke _______.
Memories of Brooke are _______.
Brooke can be _______.
_______ is how I describe meeting Brooke.
Worst thing about Brooke is _______.
Best thing about Brooke is _______.
Brooke likes _______ too much.
I am _______ with Brooke.

goodbye,

bRoOkE

rpsoccer520 @ 2006-01-09T18:15:00

2006-01-09T23:21:59Z

wuts up all my gangsta's and hoodies!

okay B3JK totally rock only if i oculd tell u guys wut we have in store for you...hehe!

ohhhh and another rule id like to add is......

If you tp then u must be able to be tped too...none of this stupid crap of my parents said u can't because if u do it we can do it right back to you!

So yeah soccer game sucked.......like to death! but ohhh well ill get over it!

Soccer conditioning sucked today man i felt so....ugh talk about tons of mentall pain..lol!

ohhhh and i can do a squat now..lol!

goodbye,

bRoOkE

im sorry..........

2006-01-07T17:25:21Z

man how dumb am i, can i jsut say im sorry i think i did one of the dumbest things ever last night if u only knew! im so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so sox10000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000

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sorry!

i feel like a total idiot we need to talk really bad okay i feel like crap only if u knew..................................

p.s.

but i must admit tping was awsome and sammy and mario u have no trees to tp on and by the time we got to cahnce and beebs we had none left to tp with!

goodbye,

bRoOkE

love........

2006-01-05T00:14:33Z

Who flippin told u....that would be me!

1minute its i love u 4eva

cmon u guys we will last 4eva!

bologne is wut i have to say to that, you knew it was goin to end sometime or another so y do u even start, just so u can brake there heart!you all get so involved just brake it up right before those 3 words role off there tongue those so called sacred words of i love you! they have no power but ppl seem to think they do!

PPL why do u think they call it FALLING in love, because when it ends u finally hit the bottom then the pain really starts to reveal itself!

But u still don't stop u still go looking for so called love agian and agian just to fall and hit the bottom agian!

im done.............................

goodbye

bRoOkE

rpsoccer520 @ 2005-12-27T22:43:00

2005-12-28T03:50:19Z

wuts up all my gangsta's and hoodies,

Maybe im a late bloomer............................

Maybe im just scared..........................

Maybe i expect to much...............................

Maybe im to anxous...............................

Maybe im too shy.............................

Maybe i jsut need help......................

hehe im so clever i swear!

goodbye,

bRoOkE

Guinea Pig Surprise!

2005-12-27T22:40:16Z

okay who wants to hear the funniest thing ever..........I do!

Well okay there's been this guinea pig at Meijers for eva and i told myself if i eva get enough money to buy it im gonna get it for Brittany!

So today i go to Meijer with the money hoping the gunea pigs there and there it was still there and yeah on sale to( i swear it was a sign)lol!

so i buy it and now its here in its pen and brittany doesn't know about it yet and yeah she said she didn't want another guinea pig becuz shes so busy so wut do u think her reaction will be

happy

mad

and yeah if i turn up missing in the next week or so u know y!

VERY VERY BORED IF NE WANTS TO HANGOUT 2MORROW OR TODAY GIVE ME A CALL NE TIME PLZ HELP ME I HAVN'T SEEN NE ONE 4EVA AND YES WE NEED TO TALK ABOUT NEWYEAR PLAN....I HAVE AN IDEA BUT I MISS PASS IT BY U ALL OKAY!

goodbye,

bRoOkE

p.s.

kaitlin i miss you!

gosh does that sound lesbian or wut!lol!

rpsoccer520 @ 2005-12-25T16:53:00

2005-12-25T22:04:18Z

Omgsh no one can compare to my X-mas i got to do advent at church lastnight with my home boy Jesus Christ who rox...happy birthday man!

What i go for X-mas.......

1.A FLIPPIN PORTABLE DVD PLAYER!

2. A MP3 PLAYER WHICH IS AWSOME!

3.10LB. DUMBELLS

4.$150.00 LIKE WOW!

5.A COOL NEW HURLEY SHIRT~

6.NEW DISNEY MOVIES!

7.UNDER ARMOUR WHICH IS WHITE~

8.ALSO PJ'S, SWEATSHIRT, SOCCER STUFF, AND SCRAPBOOKING STUFF!

HECK YESSS I MUST SAY MY PARENTS TOLD ME IT WAS GONNA BE OUR WORST CHRISTMAS EVA BUT THEY WERE SO WRONG IT WAS ONE OF THE BEST'S!

LOVE YOU ALL AND HOPE U ALL HAD AN AWSOME CHRISTMAS, TOO!

HOPE TO SEE YOU ALL ON NEWYEAR OR 2MORROW!

GOODBYE,

bRoOkE